Thursday, December 4, 2008

Blue Anger by Jamie Aline Hulley

The Anger I Found in a Poem
By Donny Duke

We need to keep anger apart from our lives. It has a habit of living there, and of all the passions, it seems to be the one we're the most lenient with. Many people, if asked if they felt it was wrong to express anger, would reply of course not and would probably even go so far as to say that it's healthy to vent anger as long as you control it and don't let it get out of hand. Most mental heath professionals will tell you that anger is a normal human emotion, and that suppressing it can even be harmful. Is this really true? Do we have to give expression to anger? The Mahabharata, the Indian spiritual epic that contains the Bhagavad Gita, says this about anger: "Ignorant people mistake anger for strength. He who keeps himself free from all anger is, of a truth, strong."1 Sri Aurobindo makes clear his feelings on the matter: "The psychic reply must become habitual pointing out that anger is neither right nor helpful."2 If it is your aim to live the normal human life then perhaps anger is appropriate for you both to feel and display, but I suspect that even there you'd be wise to control it as much as possible if not to try and eliminate it altogether. On the other hand, if you have chosen to embark on the long climb to human divinity, at least that climb as it's mapped out in the Integral Yoga, then you'd need to learn to throw out anger just as you do lust, jealousy, and the whole lot of other emotional vices.

It is the aim of this article to question anger. In doing so I'll take a look at anger from angles you might not have examined carefully before, and I'll look at how to handle anger, what you do with it, but just in passing. I thought I'd angle your thought, but it won't get too far. We've a small space.

Anger, as defined in most dictionaries, is a strong feeling of displeasure or hostility we feel that has been caused by a real or supposed wrong done to us or to someone we're in some affinity with. I would add to the standard definition that it can also be a weak or subtle feeling of the same, and it is this kind of anger, because it is so subtle and therefore more easily excused or overlooked, that can be the more deleterious. In short and stripped of its clothes, anger is a negative emotional reaction to someone or something. To those of us in what is called ego consciousness, which would include most everyone on the planet, anger just seems to rise automatically when encountering the appropriate stimulus. It simply comes upon us. Looking at it from this angle, anger appears to be a reflex of the human ego. As it would stand in relation to psychic feeling or the spiritual consciousness, it would be considered an unregenerate emotion, an automatic reaction of the animal human. People vary in their experience of anger. Some are slow to anger and aren't much moved by it. Others fly into a rage at the slightest provocation and are extremely violent in their display of anger. The reason for this variation comes from the fact that the experience of anger is for the most part a conditioned response, though the influence of heredity cannot be entirely ruled out. Basically, we learned how to experience anger growing up, and each one of us grows up differently. No two people are brought up in exactly the same way, and this is true even of siblings. To understand our anger and to be able to arrive at the place where we can stop reacting to it, we need to know how we leaned to be angry and show anger, and that usually takes some form of honest self-inquiry.

Though it didn't become evident until later on in life because I was apt at suppressing it, I suddenly had to come to terms with the fact that I have a problem with violent explosive anger. This discovery is partly due to the pressure of sadhana on that part of the being to change, and partly to the fact that I've been placed in a situation that stimulates anger quite easily, though I'm sure that the latter is very much a part of the process of the former. (When doing sadhana it's quite common to find yourself in a life situation confronting your difficulties, so much so it's as if it's all been arranged, and I'm sure it has.) An example of my own personal history will show where this explosive anger comes from. As a child when I did something considered bad wrong my father would take a leather belt or a switch and beat me on the butt and down the legs. I would be dancing around him trying to avoid the blows, which were quite harsh and usually left welts. He would be in a rage and would grit his teeth and say, "Are you mad? I'll give you something to be mad about!" And then he would proceed to beat me even harder. This was a common experience during childhood. He didn't know it, but he was teaching me how to express my anger. Now I saw this violent anger inside me often enough as an adult, but it would be usually of a very short duration and not physically directed at people most times but towards objects, though whomever I was mad at did receive a concentrated mouthful of obscenities. Because this was rare and not so violent, or so I thought, I didn't realize I had a problem with anger. Then in my later life I found myself in a situation raising children, and I had to confront the anger. Fortunately by then I was much more integrated inwardly with the Yoga and had tools with which to control it and keep from physically abusing the children, though I have lost it a number of times and just yelled my damn fool head off, backing the belligerent but startled kid up against the wall. It is in fact the confrontation with my own problem with anger that has resulted in the writing of this article. Finding myself in such close proximity to getting mad, I've been able to observe anger in its movement inside me, and this has lead to a number of insights which others might find helpful.

The thing that stands out to me the most when examining anger now is the fact that ninety-nine percent of the time the person I get mad at is a scapegoat for someone else or some other situation that has made me angry – anger which I haven't expressed. They are the target I point it at, usually a safer target I might add, someone who can't bite back as hard as the real object of my anger. But that's not always the case. Sometimes they are simply the straw that broke the camel's back, and I unleash on them all the anger that's been building up inside me all day, or all week, or however long I've been nursing it. I can now see the process take place quite clearly. Someone does some small thing, maybe leaves a mess in the house or something, and as I confront them about it I can feel these strands of anger attaching themselves to that situation, all the anger I'd been holding onto throughout the day. Or if it is a case of the person being a safer target, I can feel the anger I have at X come rushing in on the anger I'm now directing towards Y. This is not self-knowledge that makes you proud of yourself. You don't enjoy seeing these things, but unfortunately the road to mastery over the vital is seeing all its ruse. I find it helpful, as the last sentence demonstrates, to put the 'blame' on the vital being misbehavior of this order. It's not that I'm running away from it. I know the vital is an integral part of me, and what it does I actually do. But referring to the vital as the 'doer' helps me not to identify so much with the wrong movement. I don't own it as mine as it were, and in the distance from it I can better manage rejecting it. In addition, I don't get so down on myself because it's not something that I do per say, not the who of who I am. The vital does it, and in that distance from the mistake I have a better attitude towards myself and am less likely to repeat the mistake or to repeat it as badly. Along the same lines it's never a good idea to think of a mistake or a wrong movement, such as anger, as something intrinsic to you, as yours. Even if it's a part of your nature or human nature in general, it is not an expression of who you are. It's quite helpful to see it as something from the outside of you, something from the universal that's seeking expression in you because you are inclined, for whatever reason, to give in to that particular movement. The point here is that, once you begin to recognize that the person or thing you're so mad it isn't really the object of your anger, or is only a part of it, it becomes easier to manage. The mind, in that case, has a better handle on the vital and its outburst. The mind just has to be quite present and insistent in pointing this out to the vital as the situation unfolds.

What in fact I'm learning at this moment is that I don't even have to let anger in, or rise up as the case really is, since it comes up upon us from that angry room in the subconscious where we store it and keep it locked away until some environmental outer stimulus acts to open it. As I'm observing the situations where I become angry I can see that there is an all-determining instant of time where I grant the anger entrance into that center in me that both feels and gives the impetus to display anger. Let's call it the operational control center so to understand what I'm referring to. There's a split second between the time I'm offended as it were, and the time I feel the anger for it. It is in that flash of time that on some level I decide to go ahead and get angry. This interval of time isn't always an instant. If I'm centered and focused in the inner being when encountering the stimulus, quiet and calm both inwardly and outwardly, the interval can even be a few minutes before I feel the rush of anger vying to rise. At those times I have more of a handle on whether to keep it down or not, more control over the decision to get angry or remain calm. On the other hand, if I'm scattered out on the surface of myself, anxious and unsettled, the common position of most of us most of the time, then that interval will be the split second, and I certainly won't have the will to keep from getting angry, won't even feel any will at all except the will to lash out in anger at who or what has made me mad. It's important to note that even if you don't let it rise up, the anger is still quite present in your awareness, beating on the door for you to allow it to come in and occupy your control center. It is as though you are a fort besieged so great is the force of anger upon you trying to get in. But it is possible to keep it at bay, and as I've suggested but haven't outright said, your success in doing so will depend on how inwardly focused you are and have been throughout the day. If you're a nervous wreck, well, then you're going to get mad almost instantly, and this over a bend in the spoon.

If you are even a casual observer of the occurrence of anger within yourself it becomes evident that anger has a tendency to build up over time, making it all the more harder to control when it seems to have reached some critical mass. For this reason we are advised by popular psychology to give it expression, vent it, let it out, though in ways that would not be harmful to ourselves and others. I wouldn't agree that we have to give expression to it, or that it is right and helpful to do so, and as was shown in the opening paragraph, neither does Sri Aurobindo. I don't agree because I feel that any expression of anger no matter how subtle is indeed harmful, produces its negative effect upon ourselves and the world, but to fully expound on this point is beyond the scope of this article. Now I must back up here and say that in the present world arrangement anger does have its place, facilitates the movement of things towards their desired end, as every movement no matter how 'wrong' it might appear is part of the complex and multi-faceted web of working evolving existence, and is, however remotely, a secret manifestation of the generative Absolute. What this means to us personally is that in our present state of ego consciousness it's inevitable that we're going to get mad (especially when we've just plain had enough), though it is not an actual requirement of our being. It greatly helps to know the process involved, what is going on. Then with an enlightened understanding we can turn to the vital and begin to rein it in.

As I mentioned, there is in our subconscious what you might call an angry room, a compartment in our nether regions where we store anger. Because of a particular bend in our nature the door to this room is opened by certain kinds of knocks upon it from the outer world. What would make one person boiling mad might make another simply irritated or not even bothered at all. The point is that when this door is opened the anger comes rushing up into our conscious being seeking expression. It wants to take over the control center and put us into a state of anger. As I've said, we can either stand aside and give it momentary command over ourselves or not allow it to rise up and take over. What usually happens in practice is that we do a little of both. We let it in but regulate it, control its expression, until such time that it has subsided once again behind closed doors in our subconscious down under our feet. It's very difficult to keep from doing this. What happens more often than not is that we stand there quite angry on the inside but only show a little of that anger on the outside. In other words, we suppress it. There is an almost indeterminable line between suppressing anger and not allowing it to rise up into our being. In time and with a great deal of very honest and sincere self-evaluation, however, that line becomes more distinguishable. It is of the upmost importance to learn to distinguish that line because the critical determining factor in building up a charge of anger is whether or not you're suppressing it. By suppressing it I mean that you are angry on the inside but are giving little or no expression to it on the outside. You're in fact only really suppressing the outer display of it, though most likely in that moment you are also somewhat successful in keeping it from completely taking over on the inside, or you'd be much less able to control yourself. What happens is that when that anger subsides it simply goes back into that room in the subconscious, maybe affixing a tag upon itself saying that it belongs to this or that particular outer stimulus. (It should be noted that suppressed anger does not just return down below into that angry room. Much of it goes into the body and and leads to many bodily afflictions. In addition some of it, despite our attempts to remain passive and not lash out, does go out and hit the target of our anger, the person or people we're mad it.) When that room is full of such packets of suppressed anger we have a tendency to explode. In that instant the least little thing can set it off, and we just get mad and vent as much of that anger as our very weakened self-control will allow. Please keep in mind that this model I'm using is only for the purposes of understanding. It is a picture and with it we can get a handle on the process of anger as it rises within us, but because it's a picture that does not necessarily mean it's an untrue representation. Nature in her processes is always much more untidy and slippery than our mental models can comfortably capture. Nonetheless this is as good a working model as any to begin to grasp the very involved and complex movements of anger that get the better of so many of us and makes this present world arrangement much more unpleasant that it needs to be.

Seeing things from this angle, it would stand to reason that if we were entirely successful in keeping anger at bay, not allowing it to rise up and occupy our control center putting us in a state of anger, then we would not build up a charge of anger that would push for expression as the pressure of that charge increases. In that case we have not suppressed it. As I've said, there's a fine line between suppressing it and not letting it rise up. To most people the two would appear to be identical to one another. To those of us doing sadhana and learning to live within, however, we are much more observant and conscious of inner events and are better able to distinguish such subtleties as the difference between rejecting a vital impulse, which would mean that it does not move you, and suppressing one, which means that you are taken inwardly by the movement but don't give it outer expression. To put it differently and more simply: when you keep it from rising up the movement is felt beating on the door but is not allowed inside, and when you suppress the movement it has gotten in but isn't given its desired expression. It might seem I'm splitting hairs. I am. These hairs need to be split if you want to keep from ever getting mad. The difficulty is of course that as long as we are still living in and by the ego we are identified more with surface movements and outer happenings. As long as that's the case we do not have that constant inner poise necessary to always be able to reject a vital movement or keep it from rising up. We simply are not able to be always so present on the inside in order to keep these things from getting in. So we're going to get angry sometimes, at least on the inside, and that means we're going to build up a charge of anger in the subconscious that will more and more vie for expression, making it more difficult to keep the anger from rising up as time passes.

Does this mean we are prisoners, puppets as it were, ever bound to become angry at some point even when we are ardently trying not to get mad at anybody? Will anger just simply overcome us once its charge in us, or down below us rather, has reached its boiling point? Obviously we need to discharge or neutralize anger in some manner before it becomes too much to deal with. There's always the punching bag or the muffled pillow scream. Divert the anger is what many counselors would tell us. Turn your anger upon an inanimate object but hold in view that person you're mad at. You can get it out that way and not hurt anybody. I wouldn't recommend this method even for children. In the first place you're getting mad, letting anger take over your control center. In the second place you are indeed angrily striking whomever you're mad at. It will have its negative effect upon them. We actually live in a vast communal sea of thought and feeling. Whatever you think or feel towards someone reaches them, the more so and with more impact the greater the emotional charge of the formation. Some would advise going out and doing some strenuous work or exercise to get the anger out, to release its charge. This method has more possibilities, but you'd have to be able to hold the specific incidence of anger in view without letting it get you angry, and somehow through some alchemy, release it through the vehicle of the activity. This program would be haphazard at best and I doubt in most incidences would be successful. You might accidently hit upon the right discharge button if you're lucky. I suppose there are a great deal of methods people use to release a charge of anger. I have to admit that here in this very critical area there was a big gapping hole in my program. Yeah, I've been ardently observing anger and trying to keep it out of my operational control room, but I've haven't been doing much to get rid of anger once I have been taken over by it's movement. Maybe I spend a moment or two clearing out by quieting myself until it becomes possible to get back into an inner poise, but that's about all. If I call on the Mother it's during an incidence itself, for Her to come and help so things won't escalate into the killing fields or something. I've suddenly discovered I've been doing nothing to get rid of the anger once I've gotten mad. At the present moment I'm writing a book-length poem that deals with anger as well as many other issues. It's sort of like a diary written by the inner voice, or the muse as I call it, but it's organized and focused into a long cohesive poem epic in character. The book is called The Strength to Change the Heart, A Transformational Journal. The writing of this article was was in fact suggested by a column of poetry dealing with anger in that book. Yesterday I stopped writing and put an inner concentration on the question of how to get rid of anger that is building up a charge within. The following column of poetry came to answer that question. Though it is part of the aforementioned book, as is all the poetry used here, it also came to deepen the voice of this paper.

To escape from getting mad
We each have our own room.
Most are not two people.
We always patrol that area,
The space behind.
Look daddy,
I was playing sleep in check in.
I got mad at you.
I'm sorry.
I just held it in.
I just stayed nice.
This it too much.
I have an idea.
Burn that smoked turkey.
Administer it to justice.
Don't get down on your city.
Hold it in your room
There so you can see it,
The angry sway.
You wouldn't feel its worth.
The Mother would be a waiting rose.
Wonder at Her regard,
Her fix it everything.
There's wonder in that motion.
It changes form.
It's a devoted outbreak.
Your emotional centers rise to meet Her mounting edge.
You feel the heat of surrender.
This offers ticket.
You must associate it with your emotional concern,
That angry strife.
You're surrendered on your knees
Holding this up.
Take it Mother please.
In that fire of self-giving
It gets consumed.
It's not something you return to
And nurse in your imagination.
It is a sealed letter.
The sadhana of course refers to the books as the academy of tests.
They said if the champ wins
Science wins.
I am concords of difficulty.
I be the waiting rose.
I answer your passions
With a witness above.
It's there you follow school.
You are not given over to anger.
You are given over to a wide witness movement
That can take any movement in its field of self
And answer it with a divine holding.
This is high reach in you.
Allow its movement center.
We gather here.
It is a centered well arranged,
Conscious as it is strong.
We would found this on our lives,
And every moment
Live its purpose.
Are we still angry now?
There there is no strife.
You have found your widening room
Where you can live the world.

Now it's occurred to me that a number of people might not be able to make the leap from prose to poetry so easily and won't grasp the totality of what's said.. That's Ok. It is rather figurative and strange. Keep in mind it is indeed from the inside world, that place where dreams are made. You'd have to give it your moment's worth to understand it. In a nutshell the poetry is suggesting the method recommended by the Integral Yoga to get rid of the residue of impulses and unwanted movements. You become the witness soul and live within so as not to be vulnerable to them, and if something does get in you offer it up to the Mother, who is a personification of the divine shakti for the sadhaks of the Intergral Yoga. The poetry enhances that method, fills it out and gives it a body so you can better walk with it out in practice.

Is it ever appropriate to get angry? What about rudra anger, isn't that a divine force? I'm voicing here questions I feel some might have at this point. I an not qualified to answer the first. I can only repeat my opinion – which seems also to be the opinion of Sri Aurobindo, the psychic being, and the spiritual consciousness –, that it's never beneficial to get angry. As far as what might be called rudra anger, it's my understanding that it's a divine force used by divine beings, and that there is even a Hindu deity called by the name Rudra who personifies it. According to Sri Aurobindo, when divine beings wield it They are neither in a state of wrath on the inside nor experiencing hatred.3 I do not know if it's possible for someone in ego consciousness to experience this in its true form. It would be possible I guess in the way all things are possible, but I'd imagine that if someone thinks their anger is this divine force and they are not a divine being, then they're probably fooling themselves.

I could go on at length explaining why we should avoid getting angry, but it's really an understanding you have to come to yourself. If you're doing sadhana and are leaning to live in the witness consciousness even a little, then you can see that when you get angry you not only disrupt the flow of your progress and become scattered out on the surface of yourself, but you've also made yourself wide open to the host of other lower vital movements particular to you that are always waiting for an opportunity to get in. Even if you're not doing sadhana, or are not so serious about it, you can see this latter operation quite clearly in your romantic relationships. How many times after a heated argument with your partner have you found yourself in bed with them having sex with a passion you seldom feel? Between anger and lust there's a hair's breath; the two seem to have a special affinity. In general between anger and most all other lower vital impulses there also really isn't even as much as a hop, skip, and a jump. But the danger of anger is far more threatening than just disrupting the flow of our sadhana and putting us in close proximity to other lower vital impulses. It would destroy us if we give it its field. The muse opens anger's heart and looks in there:

I had to write an article.
We're going to eliminate
What we call anger.
There must be something wrong.
Would we call it something different?
There's a different feel to it.
It has the seeds of elimination inside.
It's destruction's timetable.
This is bad business.
This forearm hurts.
It's desire's springboard.
It calls out a plan.
I'm pretty sure it won't call out one creatively.
It's got destruction's eyes.
It could kill yah.
This is its heart's hold.

I'd imagine at this point some of you are objecting to the attempt to completely exclude anger from human life, or human anger at least. It's a needed tool, you might argue. If you didn't use it at certain very crucial times you wouldn't be able to do your job. Nobody would take you seriously. Of course I'm referring to those who have such tasks as taking care of children, treating mental patients, handling prisoners, teaching students, managing employees, commanding soldiers, etc. There are moments when people get so out of hand that the only thing they respond to seems to be an angry outburst that tells them you mean business. Is this really true, or is it that the angry outburst is just the easiest and most available way to bring order? If you closely observe its process over a period of time, you can see that anger, while it may bring a temporary order, has the effect of making things worse. In most cases it escalates things in the long run, and while it perhaps succeed in bringing things under control, that control is quite flimsy and is liable to snap under the slightest pressure. It doesn't take a keen observer to see that if someone is angry with you, and you meet their anger with your own, then far from calming them down, you've just mad them madder. If it happens that you've been able to subdue them from their fear of you or your stronger muscle, they'll get you back in some way, shape, or form if you continue to have to deal with them. I've observed this process I'm describing so many times in the taking care of children. When they are shouting and I angrily shout for them to shut up, they might get quiet a moment or two, but within a few minutes, having been more or less programed by my bad example, they start screaming again. It is becoming very clear to me that when dealing with a child's temper tantrum I must keep myself free of anger. It's almost as if they are waiting to get to me, make me mad, so that they can have an excuse to further act out. And when I get angry it is so apparent that all I've done is fuel their rage. It certainly isn't easy, and it takes a great presence of mind and a settled inner poise, but it's possible in those mad moments to keep your anger at bay but still deal, and deal forcefully, with someone flying off the handle. When you are forced by the situation to subdue someone because they've become a danger to themselves or others, it is possible to do so without using anger in your reach. If there is the slightest anger in your touch upon their body, you've lost contact with calm, and they will be more difficult to restrain, will resist your hold on them all the more. These things I haven't gotten off the internet or gleaned from a published text. They come from my field book, insights I've had while learning to play properly the card I've drawn in life.

Anger, I must admit, does have a considerable force to bring to bear upon a situation. As I said, it can be used to more or less quickly bring unruly people under control. When working with special populations such as children it appears that sometimes you have little or no choice but to use it. Otherwise they just don't listen and will not stop their disruptive behavior. I've found that that's just the appearance, however, and that I can bring order better, a lasting order, by remaining calm and using a more creative albeit somewhat slower solution. And it's even possible to act very decisively and quite forcefully without being the least bit angry, but that requires a good deal of self-control and presence of mind. You don't have to get mad to bring order to chaos. It all depends on how ordered and together you are. There's a point here I could spend a lot of time on trying to explain, but let me just quote the muse when it was advising me not to respond with anger to someone who'd gotten mad at me and was being rather stupid about it: You wouldn't handle a stone with a stone and expect it different.

Someone might ask if it isn't helpful to use the force of anger in a fight. Say you find yourself in a fist fight with somebody. (I don't advocate fighting, but neither am I a pacifist. I feel that sometimes, the world being what it is, and sometimes that's a very dangerous place, a situation may require you to physically defend yourself or others.) Yes, angry and pumped up with adrenaline you might be able to land that lucky punch that will knock the other guy out. Adrenaline can give a person a lot more strength than they normally have, and there have been reports of it giving even a superhuman strength in some rare instances. The problem is you're not in control of yourself, and you have this tunnel vision that blinds you. You can't see the whole field of the fight, and in most instances, you can't even see any of it, only your rage. If you're not able to land that lucky punch, you just end up getting beat up if the other guy has more presence of mind and is in better control of his forces. I don't imagine most of us have enough self-development to control the adrenaline and remain inwardly calm in such explosive situations, but I think anyone who's a practiced and seasoned fighter, such as a martial artist for example, will tell you that if you allow yourself to get mad you'll probably lose the match.

Maybe you don't fully agree with my angles on anger, but perhaps you can see what I'm pointing towards, a more divine living. To be able to completely and at all times reject anger would mean that you are well on the way in the path of perfection, are approaching your divinity. In other words, it's a big step and would require us to surpass ourselves. Here we bring in view a difficulty so demanding that it almost has the word impossibility scrawled across its horizon, but here in this self-surpassing we also come across life's meaning, (in my perspective on things at any rate). Anger of course is a big topic, and in a short article I can't hope to question it entirely. I've only dealt with the more overt expressions of anger. I've mentioned that in its more subtle forms it is perhaps more poisonous to human living than we at this time are even remotely aware. Perhaps in another article or poem I can explain what I mean by that and why I feel that is so. What I have shown you of anger is from my own experience in dealing with it, but from the angle of approach of the Integral Yoga. I'm neither a spiritual master nor an authority on anger. I'm a sadhak that has been lead by my inner being to write this article and express what I've observed about anger in leaning to reject it. Like my coworkers here at The Chipmunk Press, I'm a work in progress. In modern society's prejudice in valuing only the opinion of 'the expert', you might not put much stock in what I advise in regards to anger, or my world view for that matter either. Even so, you might listen anyway because of the sincerity of my words. Sincerity has an impact on your inner ear, the one that listens for truth. Mine comes simply from the fact that this article is written in accordance with the true movement of my being, the one that is aligned with the reach for my divine worth. Struggling for that value I write, but I write honestly. You might ask just where I'm at in my efforts to keep anger out of my life. It would be appropriate I feel to let the muse answer that question and end the article with that. This poetry came last week to help me after I'd gotten angry:

Stop it!
Daddy you are so mean.
Oh my God,
Isn't that anger?
Yes daddy.
I even yell at you.
Matter of fulfill.
You get gratification.
Trample down the line He said.
It's way past ten.
You're conditioned response.
How else can we blow this over?
Get out of its way.
Don't stand there retrieving it.
You make it boil inside.
Whadda I do?
Keep it down.
It won't rise up
Unless you bid it do so.
A hair's breath away.
What's up with him?
He sat on his lunch.
He got mad.
And not only did he lose his life-force,
He won't be receiving any.
His anger got the better of him.
You can see it in his teeth.
He'll spring in a minute.
Open the window.
Let some fresh air in here.

1 This quote from the Mahabharata appeared in the Sri Aurobindo Ashram's daily Bande Mataram of September 1, 1906 and is assumed to have been translated by Sri Aurobindo.
2 Sri Aurobindo Birth Centennial Library, Letters on Yoga, vol. 22 or 23 or 24 pg.1411
3 Ibid. Synthesis of Yoga, Vol. 21 pg. 677

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